Where do I start?

So, I visited the family doctor back in October of 2010 and he ran my normal blood work including my A1C. Well, my A1C came back at a very high 9.5. My prior reading was 8.5 back in the summer around June of 10. See thats kind of where the trouble started for this issue. I seen a Endro in the spring and then decided to move over 2 hours away from that doctor and I did not find nor look for a new Endro. When the family doc got the results back he called and told me I need to see and Endro..... big shock....... not!

So he referred me to a diabetes center in my area and they called in October to set an appointment. They set it for January of 2011 because they are so booked. I went to the new doctor on January 11 and they were not happy with my numbers at all. Well there were really no numbers to even look at saying I stopped years ago really even checking my sugars.

The doctor asked why I stopped and all i could say was I gave up on trying anymore. I told her I could not find a doctor that really gave a shit so why should I? She assured me she was not like that and she would do everything she could to help me. I didnt really buy that but hey we will see right? So I promissed her that I would start checking my sugars and actually taking insulin for the foods I'm eating. I promissed to check at least 4 times a day. And I have actually followed through with it. On January 12 I checked 7 times! Guess what My highest sugar was only 228 that day. On January 13 I checked 13 times and my highes was 186. But, my lowest was 38. I called the doctors office to ask for an emergency kit to be called into the pharmacy for the lows and explained to the woman about the low. About 20 mins later the nurse called and talked to me about the lows I was having and told me she would talk to the doctor and call me back. Well, about 10 mins later the doctor called me! That was a big surprise to me. She changed a few of my insulin settings and told me to call if I have any issues.

I also asked why I feel like I am with drawing from drugs and feel so crappy. She explained to me that once my body was so used to the highs for so long that now my body is actually withdrawing from the highs and I would feel bad for a few weeks but, it would go away. Well it has not yet!!!! But, I am doing better and I am finding it alot easier to control my readings as I go.

Heres to this trying thing! I fully expect to continue to give it my all and try my best. But, I sure hope to start feeling better soon.